Trust, Motivation, and Beating the Odds.

Recently, I have learned a lot about trust. I second guess myself a lot. A LOT. In fact, it is not a huge secret that, yes, I am my own worst enemy. I am my biggest critic. Is that ideal? Probably not.

More than likely, I will always be hard on myself at times (for instance, I am still kicking myself as my dog stopped early on his dogwalk contact for the 3rd day in a row this last weekend, and I released him before correcting it after doing so well the whole weekend and not allowing it- I blame YOU adrenaline!)

Trust is hard. Trust is scary. Putting trust in others, for lack of better terms, scares the beejeebus out of me. Being burned never feels good, and you tend to remember the pain and outcome over anything else. A very, very good friend who has been patient with me had a long talk with me about trust. I let things go and let trust build. Sometimes putting faith in the unknown has wonderful surprises.....

A puppy. A puppy born on my birthday. When does that happen to the person who has all the bad luck? Possibly putting trust in a situation changed it. Maybe it will not work all the time, but it worked THAT time. Maybe trusting others and life is not so bad afterall. More on puppy later in future posts... Promise!

Motivation. That can also be a toughy. Laziness creeps in, and consumes. I pretty much have been training alone for a long time. It can be lonely and also makes you unmotivated to drive somewhere to go set up things by yourself. I can not get any better if I do not motivate myself. Seeing others have successes and do well in this sport called agility makes me want to get there and be next to them seeing what it is like. Maybe this may be the next thing I tackle. The more I am motivated, the more chances I have to become who I want to be.

So here we come to this crossroads of beating the odds. I look at the past couple years of my life, and realize that I have already beaten a lot of odds.

So maybe being a halfway competitive team with my current dog is not so out of reach like it feels? Maybe seeing the good parts about living in the Houston area may come more easily if I allow it? Maybe motivation will be there- maybe I just need to push that little bit more. Who knows? It may involve more crashes and burns, but maybe, just maybe- it will give more surprises if I learn to let those walls down and TRUST, stay MOTIVATED, and BEAT THE ODDS. =)

With that being said, I have lots to work on, but did forget of what I have already accomplished. Maybe remembering the accomplishments, even if very small, may help you keep moving forward towards your next goal.

- K